So, I think it is finally time to work on my report about my week at Roxbury, or I might have waited too long (it has been a month since then). Although Roxbury Holiness Camp cannot really be transferred from emotions and thoughts to quality words, I am going to give it a chance; it also should be experienced to understand the happenings more fully. There is so much that I can write about, but I am going to find the most meaningful quotes and explain them the best I can. I wish to share the change I felt, but you can determine my success.
Roxbury is a very special place where there has been peace and finding God for over 75 years. The 10-day camp was started in a Dance hall and moved to a new location a few years later, as it expanded and a new site was built. Many speakers have brought the message of God's expectation of holiness in our lives and how that can be added to the spiritual growth process and maturation. I attended as a very small child through my teens on the two weekend Sundays, and I learned very many things in Children's camp and the Main Tabernacle. From 2008 (When I was first in the Bronx) on, I have attended on Missions Day (Wednesday) and began to go all week in 2010. This year I had to take off work to attended, but it was well worth it.
If you have read my previous post on Prayer, you know about my experience in the prayer team, every morning and evening. My experience there was uplifting and challenging, but the sessions and services in the Main Tab reached even deeper in my soul. However since I cannot recount everything, I want to share the most fulfilling remembrances that positively touched my soul.
"You have heard that it was said...but I say unto you" Jay Smith
Jay Smith is a Brethren in Christ (BiC) missionary and scholar of Islam. He works in the United Kingdom (London) to debate and confront the Muslims at Speakers' Corner. For over 20 years he has debunked the traditional believes of Islam as a religion of peace, and challenged many passionate followers of Allah, to follow Jesus. He came to the United States to share new changes in the debate and ways to protect America from a negative infiltration of the Islamic ideology.
Besides his strong passion of polemics and apologetics, I was drawn to his inspirational knowledge and went daily to his sessions about defending Christianity and debunking the claims of Islam. Yet one thing he constantly repeated, I cannot get out of my head, the quote above. It seemed that he would repeat this premise every time he spoke.
This quote is a reference to the Sermon on the Mount in Matthew 5. Jesus is speaking to the crowd, that had gathered, about the old law and the new expectations of the new law. The old law focused on the action of sins, the new law addresses the motive of the heart. As the sermon progresses, the heart of the matter boils down to loving and caring for others; it is not responding to sin with a native action, but instead doing good to everyone around us (almost Pay it Forward). We as Christians are to model this approach to our interactions with others. This includes forgiveness, especially when we cannot fathom a reason to do so. Dwell on that for a while.
"Tarry is the archaic equivalent to 'hanging out'." Kevin Mannoia
Dr. Mannoia was a speaker during the final weekend, and he is the founder and chair of the Wesleyan Holiness Consortium which was founded in 2004, which aims to guide efforts and projects focused on holiness in the 21st century for pastors, unity within and among the participating churches, a holiness voice to the broader church, and the importance of holiness in the future mission of the church. My church denomination is a member of this group. He had many interesting thoughts and points that I firmly disagreed with, but one of the statements that I found intriguingly correct was the above quote.
His work is focused on understanding the meaning of holiness. One thing he said was that in this modern world is it difficult for people to understand the need for holy living through the traditional means of separation from the world, and being a model of Christ. However they do understand the importance of hanging out and spending quality time with people that are the same. In doing so we will become a cohesive unit and strong in our relationships (in order to uplift each other and unite our gifts). Doing so will merge our natures and over time the subtle shifts will result in change.
More importantly, We must tarry with God. He commands us to be holy and perfect has He is (Matthew 5:48 & 1 Peter 1:13-16), and the best way to do that is to spend time with Him. Yet, not just spend time, briefly, in devotions or at church events, but rather to linger in expectation that he will do something with our lives. As we stay in His presence his holiness will "rub off" on us, and we will be affected by the purity and perfection of God. Our changes will allow us to reflect God, for being in close proximity to God will cause a transformation of nature at the most fundamental level. Tarrying with God means to fully engulf oneself in desire to be where God is, and staying there with anticipation of this envelopment bringing changes. These changes will naturally radiate from the core of your being, and make you act as He desires and give you an ear to the whispers of the Holy Spirit. This radiation will be a direct reflection of Christ and will be a witness to others of your close relationship with God. Each transformation will reveal more characteristics of God, and chief among them will be holiness. Therefore, where you hang out and what you do there is highly important to your spiritual growth and witness, so tarry with God.
"Thank you for your dedication to the Prayer Team" John Hawbaker
About the end of the week the former Camp Director, for over 30 years, thanked me for my involvement with the prayer group. I prayed with the group every day at camp; twice per day we prayed, at 830am and 600pm. Every night I added myself to the 24-hour prayer clock from 12-1am. The Vision and purpose of the Prayer Team was set during the initial years of camp and has been an essential and necessary link in the inviting and welcoming of the Holy Spirit and God's blessing on the Camp. I enjoyed every minute of the experience and learned many things about how to shift my prayer life. (Specifically integrating it more deeply in personal life...The next weeks after camp I did a prayer-fast with a friend).
One of the main lessons I learned was to pray with anticipation and in thanksgiving. Pray with the desire to hear an answer, but not only that pray thanking God that what he desires to happen will happen. Yes, praying includes thanksgiving normally, but this type of prayer will enhance the thanks to be all-inclusive in the communication of the prayer. Saying "thank you God for helping me to deal with this situation..." or "Thanks for your provisions and loving kindness in this time of need...", and meaning it, will result in a better communication with God. It may be difficult to stay in that mindset throughout the prayer, but it is a wondrous practice. Try it, and feel the change in the clarity of your communication with God.
"Thank you for consistently sitting in the 'Amen Corner'." Darius Salter
I sat in the same spot for every service, first for consistency and secondly for focusing. Sitting in the left side of the front row of the middle was a great decision. I could interact with the face of the speakers and not be distracted by the actions of others. I could see the sincerity of the speakers and the convictions of their statements played out on their countenance. It was an excellent way to hear and interact with full focus.
It must have been nice for the speakers as well, at least due in part to the statement above. Additionally, the Camp Director joked that he should put my name on the spot and mark it for me. That didn't take place, but being noticed for consistency is an encouragement to me. Hopefully, I will continue to have this be noticed, along with other positive attributes.
"I live with no regrets." Robert Rogers
Robert came to us from Indiana to share the story of how he did not let strategy define his life. Rather he moved quickly to honor God for the life he had been given and what he was going to do. His story touched many hearts, but left me wanting more. So I got his book, Into the Deep, and a CD to keep for myself and a the same and a DVD of his testimony for a friend. The book is more in depth, but it basically tells the same story that his testimony reveals just with more feeling and emotion, since it was written closer to the tragedy than 10 years from it. I encourage you to look for the book, support his ministry, Mighty in the Land; and listen to his story here (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KvRYb6ERVyI).
I was challenged by his music and his choice to live in peace and tranquility, in spite of the drastic changes that took place in his life. His story moved me to rethink how I share emotions (again), and brought me back to writing my resolutions in January. I know that I can turn a switch with children, but it is harder to share that with people my own age. I need to not be overcome by the fear of sharing, but rather allow myself to share in my weakness to help and encourage others. However, I know that without the strength of God, that is not easy. It is something I must do, if I am going to learn from mistakes and move on. God knows and I must trust Him to be the King of my life.
"I pray that his boldness and passion will be strengthened by you...God" Hannah Murray
My Faith has officially been restored in the future of the church, basically anyway. (I am still some concerned.) Saturday night of camp, Darius Salter spoke of being dynamic and potent for Christ, through the power of the Holy Spirit (Zechariah 4:6 ), and remembering to rely on God for our boldness and "ferocious fearlessness" to share his gospel. We must allow the Holy Spirit to flow out of us and through us, which is something I felt in my recent prayer-fast. His sermon was powerful enough to bring people to the alter in far greater masses than the healing service, with many coming to dedicate their lives to Christ, fully. I sat in my "amen corner" and prayed for theses people, hoping that many would hear God's voice for the direction of their lives. It was a joy to pray for them all, and a culmination of my work with the Prayer Team that week. I was happy with that, but as we finished the evening I felt a tap on my shoulder that changed my evening.
The Teens usually sit right behind me, and this evening service was no different. Except for the fact that one chose to interact with me, but asking to pray for me. I don't remember what she said prompted her to pray, but God did for sure. When I agreed, Hannah Murray came around, sat beside me, and just started praying for me. It was astounding that all the words she spoke, they were things I had been praying about, only half-heartedly, but praying for nonetheless. She said she observed me, and thought I needed prayer, and what she asked for was more than I bargained for. She asked for a specific request, but I was too embarrassed to tell her a real request (stupidly). Hannah had faith that was outstanding, and it showed with her willingness to pray with someone else later, after everyone had departed the Main Tabernacle. That prayer was the biggest challenge and sweetest memory from Roxbury. I had learned a lot from the speakers and gleaned many insights from the Scriptures and Prayer meetings, but this prayer for me was amazing.
I had the fortune of meeting her in the lunch line the next day, and she chatted with me throughout lunch and even a little after (sadly she was leaving before my family arrived). We developed a connection enough, that I offered to pray for her and her future as well. I am glad to have had that experience, because I had been communicating with another friend about joining together in prayer for certain requests that seemed far off and unanswered. This chance to have been randomly prayed for showed me that God has not forgotten my requests, He is just waiting for me to grow. I know that I did not doubt much, but some parts of my life are more empty than I readily admit. The prayer from Hannah, helped me to realize this, even more deeply than I would have by just hearing the Word of God from the speakers. Thanks Hannah, maybe I will see you again.
So that is my summary of Roxbury Holiness Camp. I really hope that you enjoyed it and that some of the insights that I gathered will have a positive effect on your life. I am already looking forward for next year and learning that I am made for God's love. I want to take others, and I want to share with them the joy of life that can be found at Roxbury, while abiding with God. God has his arms open wide, let Him take you in.
08 September 2013
15 August 2013
Song Time: "The River" (2002)
"The River"
Chris Tomlin
When I was held up in chains
The river was free
When I was covered in stains
The river was clean
When I was losing my way
The river found me
I can see the river
I can feel the river
I'm letting go of all I hold onto
Let it wash away
When we were broken inside
The river was love
When we were thirsty and dry
You were more than enough
When we were drowning in lies
The river saved us
I'm dancing in the river
And I'll be here forever
I'm letting go of everything but You
Carry me away
Carry me away...
So, I was at Roxbury Holiness Camp last week, and the morning speaker on Saturday brought this song to mind as I listened. He had talked about holiness, and how it affects us, the previous day. He said that we must spend time with God to become more like Him, though our association with Him. We must communicate with God on a highly regular basis and just "hang out"/tarry with Him; the more time spent in God's presence, the holier we will become. The pastor's sermon on this morning was even deeper...
He directed us to an obscure passage in the midst of Ezekiel, that talked about a vision received by the prophet. As we read the passage, I was not initially sure what was going to be discussed, and wow was it pertinent to life. The Scripture was from chapter 47 verses 1-6. Looking at this recorded vision shows the connect to and meaning of this song.
Notice that the river in the passage comes from the Temple (the Dwelling Place of the Most High God) and represents His will and presence. If you interpret the message of the vision, without looking later in the chapter, you will see the need for us to step out into the deep, into the fullness of God's mercy, grace, and direction. Ezekiel followed the man into the depths as he measured the distance from the relative "safety" of the shore/bank.
Each of the first three measurements took the prophet to a place in the river where he could securely stand on his own, remaining connected to the bank and shoreline. It surely was more difficult to stand as the water was deeper and deeper and the swiftness increased. Greater trust was either placed in the firmness of the riverbed, or the flow of the river. Remaining grounded in the mud, does not disqualify us from God's grace, as we enter it when we step into the river of his provision and guidance. Entering is a good first step, but as we become mature Christians, we must experience a greater fulfillment of God's mercy as we spend more time in the presence of His Holy Spirit. However, there is a time in which we must relinquish self-determination and self-reliance and Fully Rely on God, by letting go of all we hold onto, and stepping into the unreachable depths of the ever-flowing river.
There is a point in our lives, both mental and spiritual, when we reach the place to give up control of every part of our being. This part may come once; it may occur many times. The decision may be hard or easy; it takes trust and commitment, but mostly trust. Allowing the presence of God to be all around us, in us, and through us, will give us more than enough. We just need to be willing to let go of the shoreline, launch out into the deep and fully trust in God's deliverance and provision. We may not know where the flow of the river will take us, what will occur in our lives, but we are told not to worry. (Matthew 6:25-34) God will take care of us.
The choice should not be difficult, but our desire to stay connected with the world and our sinful nature prevents total commitment to God's holy will. Our God is always with us, in spite of our connection with what he hates (sin); He will reach out to you until you plunge into the uncrossable, unfathomable depths of his mercy, grace, and love. The peace and tranquility of the fullness of God can be felt when we "flow with the go" of the mighty river flowing from the presence of God. His will is good, pleasing, and perfect (Romans 12:1-2). It is then that you will be surrendered to the direction of his way, to make you what you ought to be. Step into the ever-flowing, ever-changing river of God's divine, omnipotent presence.
Chris Tomlin
When I was held up in chains
The river was free
When I was covered in stains
The river was clean
When I was losing my way
The river found me
I can see the river
I can feel the river
I'm letting go of all I hold onto
Let it wash away
When we were broken inside
The river was love
When we were thirsty and dry
You were more than enough
When we were drowning in lies
The river saved us
I'm dancing in the river
And I'll be here forever
I'm letting go of everything but You
Carry me away
Carry me away...
So, I was at Roxbury Holiness Camp last week, and the morning speaker on Saturday brought this song to mind as I listened. He had talked about holiness, and how it affects us, the previous day. He said that we must spend time with God to become more like Him, though our association with Him. We must communicate with God on a highly regular basis and just "hang out"/tarry with Him; the more time spent in God's presence, the holier we will become. The pastor's sermon on this morning was even deeper...
He directed us to an obscure passage in the midst of Ezekiel, that talked about a vision received by the prophet. As we read the passage, I was not initially sure what was going to be discussed, and wow was it pertinent to life. The Scripture was from chapter 47 verses 1-6. Looking at this recorded vision shows the connect to and meaning of this song.
Notice that the river in the passage comes from the Temple (the Dwelling Place of the Most High God) and represents His will and presence. If you interpret the message of the vision, without looking later in the chapter, you will see the need for us to step out into the deep, into the fullness of God's mercy, grace, and direction. Ezekiel followed the man into the depths as he measured the distance from the relative "safety" of the shore/bank.
Each of the first three measurements took the prophet to a place in the river where he could securely stand on his own, remaining connected to the bank and shoreline. It surely was more difficult to stand as the water was deeper and deeper and the swiftness increased. Greater trust was either placed in the firmness of the riverbed, or the flow of the river. Remaining grounded in the mud, does not disqualify us from God's grace, as we enter it when we step into the river of his provision and guidance. Entering is a good first step, but as we become mature Christians, we must experience a greater fulfillment of God's mercy as we spend more time in the presence of His Holy Spirit. However, there is a time in which we must relinquish self-determination and self-reliance and Fully Rely on God, by letting go of all we hold onto, and stepping into the unreachable depths of the ever-flowing river.
There is a point in our lives, both mental and spiritual, when we reach the place to give up control of every part of our being. This part may come once; it may occur many times. The decision may be hard or easy; it takes trust and commitment, but mostly trust. Allowing the presence of God to be all around us, in us, and through us, will give us more than enough. We just need to be willing to let go of the shoreline, launch out into the deep and fully trust in God's deliverance and provision. We may not know where the flow of the river will take us, what will occur in our lives, but we are told not to worry. (Matthew 6:25-34) God will take care of us.
The choice should not be difficult, but our desire to stay connected with the world and our sinful nature prevents total commitment to God's holy will. Our God is always with us, in spite of our connection with what he hates (sin); He will reach out to you until you plunge into the uncrossable, unfathomable depths of his mercy, grace, and love. The peace and tranquility of the fullness of God can be felt when we "flow with the go" of the mighty river flowing from the presence of God. His will is good, pleasing, and perfect (Romans 12:1-2). It is then that you will be surrendered to the direction of his way, to make you what you ought to be. Step into the ever-flowing, ever-changing river of God's divine, omnipotent presence.
Oh, let us launch out on this ocean so broad,
Where floods of salvation o’erflow;
Oh, let us be lost in the mercy of God,
Till the depths of His fullness we know.
Where floods of salvation o’erflow;
Oh, let us be lost in the mercy of God,
Till the depths of His fullness we know.
12 August 2013
Prayer Redux
So this last week was Roxbury Holiness Campmeeting. As much as I want to talk about the fullness of my week, it is best that I wait until I have had time to more fully understand those words spoken in the many sessions. One thing that I do understand is that the power of prayer is how God moves. I have desired to attend a full week of Camp for awhile now, and participate in the prayer team.
The Prayer team meets twice a day during camp, at 830 and at 1800, to pray for the entire camp and reflect the importance of prayer both during the week and after our time there. Everyday many people attended the prayer services to pray for the camp: the speakers, the director, the attenders, the staff, and most importantly the guiding of the Holy Spirit. It is that dedication to prayer and thanksgiving that has made the Camp a place where people meet God and find his direction.
I cannot say that I received that direction fully, but I can say that this past week has given me a deeper appreciation for the need to talk to God, and one prayer time, after Saturday evening service, has renewed my faith in the next generation of Christians, although I am still not sure I can worship with them, but that is a different story.
In my last blog post, I noted that prayer has three main parts. Giving little coverage to the importance of being thankful to God. In our times of petition, we should not really "demand" things of God; asking is not always the best way either. Instead, we should thank God that he is going to fulfill his will in each of our lives. We must know that he is willing to allow the Holy Spirit to work in mysterious ways, and we must thank Him for his omnipotence and omniscience in answering our prayers.
One of the evening sessions of prayer was spent with this idea in mind, that we must thank God for what he will do. He is beyond awesome, he knows what we need, and when we offered our meager thanks for his effective working, the moving of the Holy Spirit, and the touching of hearts to hear God's voice, boy did He answer. We placed our trust in God to work according to his good pleasure (Philippians 2:13) and that he could affect each life in the Camp and outside. His incomparable glory was shown each day after in an even more powerful way.
The next morning we all prayed around the alter of the Main Tabernacle, in the seats, and on the platform for the service, and God continued his incredible work. People came offering their lives in service to God, their wholeness for his holiness, and their actions for his purpose. The speakers spoke words given by God and the services were directed by the Spirit that walked the aisles and pew-rows. Many more continued to flow toward the front each evening and even in the afternoon sessions. A number made first-time commitments to allow God control in their lives, more came to rededicate their lives, and some came for further grace.
I sat on the center-front pew for ever service and witnessed the full alter every night. I saw the prayer warriors being directed by the Spirit of the Lord: how to pray, for whom to pray, what to pray for, and when to sit in silence. I sat in my bench crying out to God in prayer and asking for his work to be done in the hearts of those that approached the alter. Many souls found liberty, guidance, and direction as they fell to their knees before God. This action was happening before we had this "thanks-focused" prayer time. It was humbling to be a part of it.
My point in this description, is not to bring glory to the Camp and to uphold the ability of the speaker, but rather to show the affectiveness of God when we give up control and allow him to work. We can fill the earth with glorious testimony when we seek His face and allow God's will to be done. God is great and he does marvelous things. It is easy to pray in thanksgiving for what God had done, but it is much harder to thank him for what he will do. We must always remember to have a Spirit of adoration and thanks as we come to converse with God. He will hear and answer prayers.
My personal testimony is of this holds true. I mentioned that I sat in the front for each service and prayed during each alter-call. On Saturday evening, I was in intense prayer for a personal friend and prayer team member, and had paused from praying to gather my thoughts, and I felt a tap on my shoulder ask someone asked if she could pray for me. Needless to say, I said yes, and a teenager stepped around the corner and sat next to me. She commented on seeing me worship and pray and started praying for me. Saying how she saw in me a passion for God's work, a desire to serve and live for God, and a love for people...boom, not just welling up with tears, but a stream built up. She continued to pray, but I have no idea what it was about, until she stopped and asked for a specific request. Sadly embarrassment kicked in, and I did not ask for a deep, hidden request. I instead asked her to pray for my future and a job. But wow, she prayed a powerful prayer in humility before God, asking with expectation.
She just sat with me for a time after, in silence, as what she had done sunk in. The Spirit of God had moved in her, and a greater work than she understood, began in me. I did find out her name, and that she was leaving the next day, but she went off to pray for another before I could chat with her more, and thank Hannah Murray. I saw her talking and praying with another girl later, but never got the chance to talk that night, sad that I would not see her again, unless she was at prayer the next day.
Although she didn't make it, I managed, by the grace of God, to get in the lunch line with her(Sunday lunch lines are looong at Roxbury)! I was able to find out more about her and thank her officially. I didn't tell her all that her prayer meant to me, but I was able to relay it through our conversation. As we ate, I even found out about her trouble narrowing her decision about future plans. We finished lunch and I offered to reciprocate her action, and pray for her. I am not sure I was as affective, in touching her heart, as she was with her prayer, but I do know that she left joyfully. I may not ever see her again (at least until next year), but I do know we had a positive encounter with God both times.
That encounter, along with the word of God given by the speakers, has renewed my faith in the next generation and brought about other mental changes. I know I am not fully sanctified to God, I have not fully entrusted my whole life to God, and my prayer time, is going to improve. My desire to serve others has strongly increased. My resolutions, as going to be a success, I a going to have better communion with God, and my prayers will thank him for what He has done, what God is doing, and what He will do in/with my life. I am starting again, on the personal level, but thanks to God prompting a young girl to pray for me, positive changes will take place. Praise be to God! My soul has been awakened.
The Prayer team meets twice a day during camp, at 830 and at 1800, to pray for the entire camp and reflect the importance of prayer both during the week and after our time there. Everyday many people attended the prayer services to pray for the camp: the speakers, the director, the attenders, the staff, and most importantly the guiding of the Holy Spirit. It is that dedication to prayer and thanksgiving that has made the Camp a place where people meet God and find his direction.
I cannot say that I received that direction fully, but I can say that this past week has given me a deeper appreciation for the need to talk to God, and one prayer time, after Saturday evening service, has renewed my faith in the next generation of Christians, although I am still not sure I can worship with them, but that is a different story.
In my last blog post, I noted that prayer has three main parts. Giving little coverage to the importance of being thankful to God. In our times of petition, we should not really "demand" things of God; asking is not always the best way either. Instead, we should thank God that he is going to fulfill his will in each of our lives. We must know that he is willing to allow the Holy Spirit to work in mysterious ways, and we must thank Him for his omnipotence and omniscience in answering our prayers.
One of the evening sessions of prayer was spent with this idea in mind, that we must thank God for what he will do. He is beyond awesome, he knows what we need, and when we offered our meager thanks for his effective working, the moving of the Holy Spirit, and the touching of hearts to hear God's voice, boy did He answer. We placed our trust in God to work according to his good pleasure (Philippians 2:13) and that he could affect each life in the Camp and outside. His incomparable glory was shown each day after in an even more powerful way.
The next morning we all prayed around the alter of the Main Tabernacle, in the seats, and on the platform for the service, and God continued his incredible work. People came offering their lives in service to God, their wholeness for his holiness, and their actions for his purpose. The speakers spoke words given by God and the services were directed by the Spirit that walked the aisles and pew-rows. Many more continued to flow toward the front each evening and even in the afternoon sessions. A number made first-time commitments to allow God control in their lives, more came to rededicate their lives, and some came for further grace.
I sat on the center-front pew for ever service and witnessed the full alter every night. I saw the prayer warriors being directed by the Spirit of the Lord: how to pray, for whom to pray, what to pray for, and when to sit in silence. I sat in my bench crying out to God in prayer and asking for his work to be done in the hearts of those that approached the alter. Many souls found liberty, guidance, and direction as they fell to their knees before God. This action was happening before we had this "thanks-focused" prayer time. It was humbling to be a part of it.
My point in this description, is not to bring glory to the Camp and to uphold the ability of the speaker, but rather to show the affectiveness of God when we give up control and allow him to work. We can fill the earth with glorious testimony when we seek His face and allow God's will to be done. God is great and he does marvelous things. It is easy to pray in thanksgiving for what God had done, but it is much harder to thank him for what he will do. We must always remember to have a Spirit of adoration and thanks as we come to converse with God. He will hear and answer prayers.
My personal testimony is of this holds true. I mentioned that I sat in the front for each service and prayed during each alter-call. On Saturday evening, I was in intense prayer for a personal friend and prayer team member, and had paused from praying to gather my thoughts, and I felt a tap on my shoulder ask someone asked if she could pray for me. Needless to say, I said yes, and a teenager stepped around the corner and sat next to me. She commented on seeing me worship and pray and started praying for me. Saying how she saw in me a passion for God's work, a desire to serve and live for God, and a love for people...boom, not just welling up with tears, but a stream built up. She continued to pray, but I have no idea what it was about, until she stopped and asked for a specific request. Sadly embarrassment kicked in, and I did not ask for a deep, hidden request. I instead asked her to pray for my future and a job. But wow, she prayed a powerful prayer in humility before God, asking with expectation.
She just sat with me for a time after, in silence, as what she had done sunk in. The Spirit of God had moved in her, and a greater work than she understood, began in me. I did find out her name, and that she was leaving the next day, but she went off to pray for another before I could chat with her more, and thank Hannah Murray. I saw her talking and praying with another girl later, but never got the chance to talk that night, sad that I would not see her again, unless she was at prayer the next day.
Although she didn't make it, I managed, by the grace of God, to get in the lunch line with her(Sunday lunch lines are looong at Roxbury)! I was able to find out more about her and thank her officially. I didn't tell her all that her prayer meant to me, but I was able to relay it through our conversation. As we ate, I even found out about her trouble narrowing her decision about future plans. We finished lunch and I offered to reciprocate her action, and pray for her. I am not sure I was as affective, in touching her heart, as she was with her prayer, but I do know that she left joyfully. I may not ever see her again (at least until next year), but I do know we had a positive encounter with God both times.
That encounter, along with the word of God given by the speakers, has renewed my faith in the next generation and brought about other mental changes. I know I am not fully sanctified to God, I have not fully entrusted my whole life to God, and my prayer time, is going to improve. My desire to serve others has strongly increased. My resolutions, as going to be a success, I a going to have better communion with God, and my prayers will thank him for what He has done, what God is doing, and what He will do in/with my life. I am starting again, on the personal level, but thanks to God prompting a young girl to pray for me, positive changes will take place. Praise be to God! My soul has been awakened.
31 July 2013
Where is Prayer in Life?
Earlier this year, I wrote a list of expectations and goals for improving myself. Many people call these resolutions, but being resolved to completely improve takes commitment and time (obviously). One of those goals that I wrote was simply to: Pray with Expectations. I wanted to record requests and write results/answers to my prayers in the sense of keeping a prayer journal.
The week before I wrote those goals was a week of prayer and fasting that my church has been completing every year. I was high on my expectations and anticipating quality effort. My journey has not been as strong as I desired, but prayer must not take a back seat.
Many preachers have written on Prayer: Andrew Murray wrote The Prayer Life, Charles Spurgeon's many sermons (http://www.spurgeon.org/sermons/1039.htm), Jonathan Edwards' "On Corporate Prayer", to Oswald Chambers, Billy Graham, Warren Wiersbe, Chuck Colson, and others. Obviously it must be an important part of the Christian life. We all have heard the Lord's Prayer and have heard statements like "Pray without ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17), and they are wonderful mantras. Why should we do these things?
The first thing to address: What is Prayer?
Secondly we must share our cares/troubles/anxieties on God. (1 Peter 5:7). We have periods of doubt and negative emotions, but we must embrace the care of God and rest in his breast. Hiding under His wings we can safely abide in God. God has chosen us to fulfill a purpose, but we must not worry about our lives (Matthew 6). We may use the Psychologists and Psychiatrists to vent to, to share with, but He is our Rock and in Him we can hide. Prayer is the way that we can do that-we must hide in Him (always) and allow his control in our lives. It may make us nervous, but worry should NOT be a part of our lives. The constant communication with God can eliminate that over exertion in overthinking. God has provided us a way and we must follow.
The easiest way to constantly pray is by giving thanks (Philippians 4:4) to God for everything. I was in Wendy's last week enjoying a Pretzel Bacon Cheeseburger (yum!), and as I was near done two families of girls came into the restaurant and sat at the booths in front of me. They were jolly and happy, but the best part was the fact that the mother got the girls together and thanked God for their meal. She then proceeded to do the same with the other mother. I wanted to say something to them, and thank them, but I was overcome with nerves. (The opposite of my ferocious fearlessness) It was awesome to hear it...in North Carolina, with my Clearview friends, I heard it again. It made me want to write about it. Thanks is not just for food, it is for ALL the provisions that God gives: for money, for safety, for life, for all things... It is a way to commune with God in celebration of everything, rather than demanding things from Him.
Prayer allows us to talk to God. to share with Him, to thank him. There are many ways to pray about and things to ask God for, but we must remember to do it. We can use a formula like the Lord's Prayer or the ACTS (Adoration, Confession, Thanksgiving, Supplication), or we can talk to God like he is the Father that is there for us, cares for us, and loves us always. We need not worry, because prayer is just not asking things of God, but communicating with Him and Trusting Him with providing for us and guiding us through the Holy Spirit. It is incredibly important for us to do, to Pray without Ceasing.
Daily communicate with God and Hope with be with you always. Placing Hope in God allows us to Pray continually and to Trust His direction for our lives, we just have to ask Him to guide us, let Him do it and constantly commune with Him. Our Focus must always be on God, and we can make our life a Life of Prayer, not try to fit Prayer in our lives.
The week before I wrote those goals was a week of prayer and fasting that my church has been completing every year. I was high on my expectations and anticipating quality effort. My journey has not been as strong as I desired, but prayer must not take a back seat.
Many preachers have written on Prayer: Andrew Murray wrote The Prayer Life, Charles Spurgeon's many sermons (http://www.spurgeon.org/sermons/1039.htm), Jonathan Edwards' "On Corporate Prayer", to Oswald Chambers, Billy Graham, Warren Wiersbe, Chuck Colson, and others. Obviously it must be an important part of the Christian life. We all have heard the Lord's Prayer and have heard statements like "Pray without ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17), and they are wonderful mantras. Why should we do these things?
The first thing to address: What is Prayer?
- Communicating with God
- Casting your Cares on God
- Thanking God for His Provisions
Secondly we must share our cares/troubles/anxieties on God. (1 Peter 5:7). We have periods of doubt and negative emotions, but we must embrace the care of God and rest in his breast. Hiding under His wings we can safely abide in God. God has chosen us to fulfill a purpose, but we must not worry about our lives (Matthew 6). We may use the Psychologists and Psychiatrists to vent to, to share with, but He is our Rock and in Him we can hide. Prayer is the way that we can do that-we must hide in Him (always) and allow his control in our lives. It may make us nervous, but worry should NOT be a part of our lives. The constant communication with God can eliminate that over exertion in overthinking. God has provided us a way and we must follow.
The easiest way to constantly pray is by giving thanks (Philippians 4:4) to God for everything. I was in Wendy's last week enjoying a Pretzel Bacon Cheeseburger (yum!), and as I was near done two families of girls came into the restaurant and sat at the booths in front of me. They were jolly and happy, but the best part was the fact that the mother got the girls together and thanked God for their meal. She then proceeded to do the same with the other mother. I wanted to say something to them, and thank them, but I was overcome with nerves. (The opposite of my ferocious fearlessness) It was awesome to hear it...in North Carolina, with my Clearview friends, I heard it again. It made me want to write about it. Thanks is not just for food, it is for ALL the provisions that God gives: for money, for safety, for life, for all things... It is a way to commune with God in celebration of everything, rather than demanding things from Him.
Prayer allows us to talk to God. to share with Him, to thank him. There are many ways to pray about and things to ask God for, but we must remember to do it. We can use a formula like the Lord's Prayer or the ACTS (Adoration, Confession, Thanksgiving, Supplication), or we can talk to God like he is the Father that is there for us, cares for us, and loves us always. We need not worry, because prayer is just not asking things of God, but communicating with Him and Trusting Him with providing for us and guiding us through the Holy Spirit. It is incredibly important for us to do, to Pray without Ceasing.
Daily communicate with God and Hope with be with you always. Placing Hope in God allows us to Pray continually and to Trust His direction for our lives, we just have to ask Him to guide us, let Him do it and constantly commune with Him. Our Focus must always be on God, and we can make our life a Life of Prayer, not try to fit Prayer in our lives.
21 July 2013
Adventures in House-Sitting
Since last Thursday, I have been fortunate to house-sit for my former Learning Center boss. I got to care for his fish and dog, and go beyond my normal pet caring. The best part was the A/C during the hottest days of this summer...at least it started out that way. I had plenty of free time, but rarely used it for growth or reading. I spent a week wasting time on things that inevitably will be useless in the long-run. Although walking the dog for over a mile twice per day has been helpful, and there were other fun times that created learning experiences.
First, I rescued a bird, and boy was it interesting with a dog. I learned that I can take apart tubes in the wood furnace, but I cannot put them back together. I discovered that when a bird flutters around that it may not be struggling, but getting into a new position. I found out that a cornered bird doesn't fly, but cowers until captured. Yet, I learned to value the life of the bird the way Christ does (Matthew 6:26).
Next, I found that late nights and early mornings only work if you keep moving, but it is not good to do that too often. I didn't keep moving, except when I was walking the dog or speeding down the highway to get back home before midnight! From that I learned that I need more patience, less focus on things that make me happy getting done. (Not that I don't enjoy flying down the road.) I mean I can survive on pizza and Mountain Dew, but I cannot rely on those things to get me through the day and week. Through, my chats with a new friend, who I have not met, I see that my reliance on God is not the fullest it can be.
I was "set up" with my new friend by a teen that was with me in the Bronx last summer. She met this girl as a camp counselor, and thought that we might get along. So after a series of questions and texts, I was introduced to Amy Sickles. This introduction has brought about a week of strong, spiritual conversations and perspective discussions. She is a newer Christian, a self-described "free spirit," and loves life. Amy wants to please God with all her life, enjoys singing, and is very emotionally driven (in love of others and empathy). We have had wonderful, uplifting conversations about controversial Christian topics: wife "submission," tattoos, head coverings, compromise, relationships, drinking etc. It has been interesting to hear some of her perspectives on things, but I don't really agree with her on everything. One thing that separates us is her free-spirit nature, she has a artful tattoo and things, but for some reason I haven't found it in me to judge her motives, the way I would have a year ago. However her eccentric nature draws me to her and her opinions. We have built an interesting friendship, especially since we haven't met in person, but I enjoy the new Christian friend God has given me. It is amazing how God puts things together for his will (Philippians 2:13).
I still need to learn how to manage my time and or let God manage it for me, but I guess the change of scenery has given me some new things to learn. I know that I don't give enough "God-time", yet I am getting closer. As we learned in Church, we need to invite the kingdom of God to earth as it says in the Lord's Prayer and allow Him to work in us. We also have to allow him to do his will in all parts of our life. I am sure I said that before in this blog, but He's Still Working on Me.
First, I rescued a bird, and boy was it interesting with a dog. I learned that I can take apart tubes in the wood furnace, but I cannot put them back together. I discovered that when a bird flutters around that it may not be struggling, but getting into a new position. I found out that a cornered bird doesn't fly, but cowers until captured. Yet, I learned to value the life of the bird the way Christ does (Matthew 6:26).
Next, I found that late nights and early mornings only work if you keep moving, but it is not good to do that too often. I didn't keep moving, except when I was walking the dog or speeding down the highway to get back home before midnight! From that I learned that I need more patience, less focus on things that make me happy getting done. (Not that I don't enjoy flying down the road.) I mean I can survive on pizza and Mountain Dew, but I cannot rely on those things to get me through the day and week. Through, my chats with a new friend, who I have not met, I see that my reliance on God is not the fullest it can be.
I was "set up" with my new friend by a teen that was with me in the Bronx last summer. She met this girl as a camp counselor, and thought that we might get along. So after a series of questions and texts, I was introduced to Amy Sickles. This introduction has brought about a week of strong, spiritual conversations and perspective discussions. She is a newer Christian, a self-described "free spirit," and loves life. Amy wants to please God with all her life, enjoys singing, and is very emotionally driven (in love of others and empathy). We have had wonderful, uplifting conversations about controversial Christian topics: wife "submission," tattoos, head coverings, compromise, relationships, drinking etc. It has been interesting to hear some of her perspectives on things, but I don't really agree with her on everything. One thing that separates us is her free-spirit nature, she has a artful tattoo and things, but for some reason I haven't found it in me to judge her motives, the way I would have a year ago. However her eccentric nature draws me to her and her opinions. We have built an interesting friendship, especially since we haven't met in person, but I enjoy the new Christian friend God has given me. It is amazing how God puts things together for his will (Philippians 2:13).
I still need to learn how to manage my time and or let God manage it for me, but I guess the change of scenery has given me some new things to learn. I know that I don't give enough "God-time", yet I am getting closer. As we learned in Church, we need to invite the kingdom of God to earth as it says in the Lord's Prayer and allow Him to work in us. We also have to allow him to do his will in all parts of our life. I am sure I said that before in this blog, but He's Still Working on Me.
04 July 2013
A Perception of July the 4th
"It is in the power of every generation to make themselves, in some degree, partakers in the deeds, and in the fame of their ancestors, by adopting their principles, and studying their examples. Wherever history records the acts of men, the past has more or less influence on the present. The heart, as well as the understanding, feels the connexion. There is not only a transmission of ideas and of knowledge, from generation to generation; there is also a traditional communication of sentiments and of feelings. The mind delights to associate with the spirits that have gone before it; to enter into their counsels to embrace their designs; to feel the impulse of their motives; to enjoy their triumphs, and to hold common sorrow in their misfortunes. It exults to find itself, not a distinct, confined point of present being, without relation to the past, or the future, but a part of the great chain of existence, which commencing with the origin of our race, and running through its successive generations, binding the present to the past, and even to the future, in mutual attachments, sympathies, and common desires, will hold on to the period, when all sentiments and all affections merely human shall be no more."--An address delivered before the Washington Benevolent Society, at Portsmouth, July 4, 1812.; Daniel Webster,
So, what is this generation's perception of the day set aside to celebrate the declaration of independence from Great Britain? Does it connect to the past; deal with the inherent principals of freedom, liberty, and Christian morality, or embrace a new sentiment that ignores the values and beliefs that made America successful for the past 237 years? Has modernism clouded our idealism that "life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness" no longer hold their true nature of being endowed by a Creator?
What is the significance of the 4th to you?
- Is it a time to have fireworks and barbeques?
- Does it show a reverence for the past battles for a people's government (a republic)?
- Is your celebration for the great chain of the principles and examples of our Godly Founders?
- Is it for the hot dogs and hamburgers?
- Is it to wave the red, white, and blue flag and declare freedom?
- Is it to create a common thread to connect to the morals used to establish this great nation?
- Does it reflect the desire of the Founders to create a nation based on prudence and virtue?
- Is it to celebrate the security the government has afforded you at the price of freedom and liberty?
- Is it to declare America's greatness...
- Afforded by a great Creator?
- Established by "great" leaders?
- Abuse of our great power/responsibility?
- Enacted through military usurpations?
- Added to frivolous pursuits of "happiness"?
- Does it connect to the past?
- Has the meaning of our Founders' actions lost their significance in modern society?
We have not passed, from generation to generation: the examples of our ancestors, the principles of our past, and the nature to conserve and serve alongside others. Instead we have declared and independence from our godly past: for self-satisfaction, for personal pursuits of happiness that we cannot achieve, for hope and security provided by our elected and appointed officials. God granted our Founders the wisdom and forthrightness to establish a nation where equality was not something to demand, or rewrite, but rather a fact of life due to the liberties we all enjoyed. Conservative idealism does not stop progress, it only makes us think before we react. It allows for debate, discussion, and decision-making that considers the great chain of American existence, which was established on moral and righteous grounds. We must return to what made America good, so that she can continue to be great.
Consider this:
“Freedom is never more than one generation away from extinction. We didn't pass it to our children in the bloodstream. It must be fought for, protected, and handed on for them to do the same, or one day we will spend our sunset years telling our children and our children's children what it was once like in the United States where men were free.”
― Ronald Reagan
AND
“If we ever forget that we're one nation under God, then we will be one nation gone under.”
― Ronald Reagan
― Ronald Reagan
AND--LASTLY
29 June 2013
The Silent Witness
Last summer, I was just finishing my first week of ministry in the Bronx, sharing with children and teens the importance of the gospel, following Jesus, and loving others through actions, devotion, and preaching the word publically. We shared with the children in the park and openly witnessed to them about the strength one can find in God. While greater things are still to be done in that city, (Shout out to Clearview, who just left there this morning!) my job there is seemingly finished. Although I am sure I could go back sometime...
To go to share the message of the gospel with children and publically preach, is a wonderful thing and a joyous service. I used to think that was the only way to do it effectively, but I have recently discovered that I unknowingly have become a Silent Witness for God.
I have always been the one to be ready to give an answer to what I asked or thought (based on 1 Peter 3:15), and while polemics may be effective in releasing emotional outbursts of truth, it does not necessarily convince the skeptic. Yet, voicing what you believe and why God is love is not wrong, it is not always the most effective way. Rather it can be replaced with living as an example of Christ (1 Cor. 11:1), and listening to the confirmation of the Holy Spirit (Romans 9:1). This means treating your body as a temple of the Holy Spirit to keep it tidy and clean (1 Cor. 6 esp. v19-20) and living in accordance to the direction of the power, love, and self-discipline provided in that relationship (2 Timothy 1:7). While most important of those is love, the proof often lies in the self-discipline.
Many people can claim to love others and love God, but they forget the action, which can cause trouble in their relationships (1 John 4 and James 2). If we do not exercise resistance to things of this world and pretend that it is ok to live in "close proximity" to the lifestyle of the sin, our lives will become clouded easily lead astray. Muddling the Word of God to "fit our needs" is not heeding the guidance of the Spirit and certainly does not come from the Father above. It may seem what we want at the time, but it is not usually the direction we are being shown. Instead of gratifying the desires of the flesh, we must actively follow the law of God (1 John 2:15-17 and 1 John 3:18).
In doing so, we shall become witnesses. Living by example and not blasting away at a shell of unfaithfulness by throwing words at a wall, can help others see the light of Christ in you. It is helpful to know God's Word and to Pray for guidance as we P-GROW...(Pray, Go to church, Read God's Word, OBEY God's Word, and Witness). Sometimes witnessing comes naturally and that is when we become silent witnesses, reaching folks with little effort and helping others to find their way, or rediscover a lost path so that they can move on to God. While mentoring is a good way to do this, it must also happen in observable action. Resistance to the world is the best way to do this, calmly avoiding the evil things available around us (1 Peter 3:8-12 and Psalm 34:11-14). The best way to do that is to live in a way that shuns the desires of lust and greed, while searching for the truth and living in the innocence of God's love. With this will come wisdom to live and to be at peace with others, then they will be drawn back toward life in Christ. (2 Timothy 2:21-26).
Being a Silent Witness takes effort and commitment. We are made worship God and have been called to Love others.(Matthew 22:34-40) Start with that, and transformation of those around you may take place without you noticing, unless they come to you and ask questions or tell you what your actions mean to them. It is never too late to start, unless Christ returns before you do...(Philippians 1:6, 9-11).
Let us not be given to complacency, but let us follow the last declaration Jesus left to his disciples in Acts 1:8---"You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”
To go to share the message of the gospel with children and publically preach, is a wonderful thing and a joyous service. I used to think that was the only way to do it effectively, but I have recently discovered that I unknowingly have become a Silent Witness for God.
I have always been the one to be ready to give an answer to what I asked or thought (based on 1 Peter 3:15), and while polemics may be effective in releasing emotional outbursts of truth, it does not necessarily convince the skeptic. Yet, voicing what you believe and why God is love is not wrong, it is not always the most effective way. Rather it can be replaced with living as an example of Christ (1 Cor. 11:1), and listening to the confirmation of the Holy Spirit (Romans 9:1). This means treating your body as a temple of the Holy Spirit to keep it tidy and clean (1 Cor. 6 esp. v19-20) and living in accordance to the direction of the power, love, and self-discipline provided in that relationship (2 Timothy 1:7). While most important of those is love, the proof often lies in the self-discipline.
Many people can claim to love others and love God, but they forget the action, which can cause trouble in their relationships (1 John 4 and James 2). If we do not exercise resistance to things of this world and pretend that it is ok to live in "close proximity" to the lifestyle of the sin, our lives will become clouded easily lead astray. Muddling the Word of God to "fit our needs" is not heeding the guidance of the Spirit and certainly does not come from the Father above. It may seem what we want at the time, but it is not usually the direction we are being shown. Instead of gratifying the desires of the flesh, we must actively follow the law of God (1 John 2:15-17 and 1 John 3:18).
In doing so, we shall become witnesses. Living by example and not blasting away at a shell of unfaithfulness by throwing words at a wall, can help others see the light of Christ in you. It is helpful to know God's Word and to Pray for guidance as we P-GROW...(Pray, Go to church, Read God's Word, OBEY God's Word, and Witness). Sometimes witnessing comes naturally and that is when we become silent witnesses, reaching folks with little effort and helping others to find their way, or rediscover a lost path so that they can move on to God. While mentoring is a good way to do this, it must also happen in observable action. Resistance to the world is the best way to do this, calmly avoiding the evil things available around us (1 Peter 3:8-12 and Psalm 34:11-14). The best way to do that is to live in a way that shuns the desires of lust and greed, while searching for the truth and living in the innocence of God's love. With this will come wisdom to live and to be at peace with others, then they will be drawn back toward life in Christ. (2 Timothy 2:21-26).
Being a Silent Witness takes effort and commitment. We are made worship God and have been called to Love others.(Matthew 22:34-40) Start with that, and transformation of those around you may take place without you noticing, unless they come to you and ask questions or tell you what your actions mean to them. It is never too late to start, unless Christ returns before you do...(Philippians 1:6, 9-11).
Let us not be given to complacency, but let us follow the last declaration Jesus left to his disciples in Acts 1:8---"You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”
Be the person that counts.
That is the challenge.
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